The Conversational Element

Although I hesitate to say that I'm this sort of essayist, I think I'm a Conversationalist. I feel that the ambivalence and self-doubt fit me the best of all in my life. This sort of ambivalence has almost lead to me being a contradiction in almost every aspect of life. I feel that this contradiction could be reflected in my writing. I do not necessarily like this aspect of me, however I don't mind that it is reflected in my writing. Since this style is conversational, I feel that it is good that my personality is reflected; especially considering that that's what the personal essay is based off of. 

The self-doubt is probably what I possess even more than the ambivalence. I feel that self-doubt is something that is inside of every single human being. This doubt is what defines us sometimes, or me, in this case. The doubt is what makes me want to be better in all aspects of life. The fear that my thoughts or capabilities will be inadequate runs deep inside of me and its something that has been with me a majority of my life. Although I rarely speak of these feelings, I think that they will come flowing out in the form of personal essay. They are much easier to write on paper to unknown readers than to actually express them vocally.